POR AMOR AL ARTE

i woke up with the most throbbing headache. i think i haven't been taking good care of myself. what i need is a breath of fresh air, a long walk on the beach, less thinking. i sometimes try too hard. i ponder on the uncertainty of my future. do i stay here in america or do i follow my dreams to the southernmost tip of chile? but i keep remembering....wherever you go, there you are and i am not yet a self-contained person. there are unresolved chapters that i cannot close cold turkey. how does one work on these things while at the same time carrying on with the daily demands of reality?

not very clear, but that's just the way it is for me today.