it is suddenly cold, very cold here in santiago de chile and i seek refuge. refuge from responsibility in order to do what i really like. i spent most of the day putting together a fabric pillow in order to lighten things up here in this barren apartment. somehow the reds and oranges were the right colors amid the impending gloom of winter, a recurring season which i have yet to decipher. i am not particularly drawn to winter, those early nights, darkness more than light and cold. so imbuing my life with color. i am so happy with the results of this spontaneous, freehand applique pillow, all elements speaking of my will.for light. it is the first element of change and future i have created fully since my mother left me.